This morning we put a offer on a house. I’m scared. Why is it that we dream of things and when they may happen we get scared?
I know part of the reason why I’m scared. This house is out in the country and 25 minutes away from where I work. I have never lived more than 10 minutes away from my job and I have never lived in the country. It means I will have to rearrange my schedule and leave earlier to get to work on time. I will get home later. It will take more time out of my day. On snowy days in the winter the drive will probably suck.
I’m totally out of my comfort zone.
I know once I get into the flow it will be fine. I’ll get into a routine. I’ll get to work on time. I’ll learn how to drive on the snowy, slippery country roads. Everything will work out.
It sure is easier to be in my comfort zone. The only thing that sucks about being in my comfort zone is that I am comfortable, but I don’t change.
I want to let go and let the change happen, but I’ve had a lot of emotions run through me today. At times today I was sad and at other tiem a voice inside my head was kicking and screaming because things might change. I tell myself to let go and let the good things come into my life, but it’s hard.
I have a plaque in my office that reads: Do not be afraid of change. Be afraid of not changing. Today I’m on the fence with this one today. I want to move, but I’m afraid to move.
Kinda silly isn’t it?
Yes it is silly. The offer hasn’t been accepted yet and I’m scared.
The funny thing is is that my husband has been telling me we should go look at the house for the last couple of months, but I didn’t want to. It’s too far away. I didn’t want to drive that far. He talked me into going to look at it last Thursday. I really didn’t want to look at it. On the drive to the house I was bitching in my head about having to get up early and that I had to drive twenty five minutes to look at it, but you know what? I’m glad I did. I walked out of the house pleasantly surprised. It’s a really nice house. It has all of the old country house character. The crown molding. The built in shelves and cabinets. It’s really neat. I really can see us living happily there.
Cross your fingers that they accept the offer.
I’ll keep you posted.