Me Diabetic? No Way.

I found out today that I am diabetic.

I’m kinda in shock. I never expected this in a million years.

I scheduled a appointment for a physical for today a couple of months ago. My doctor’s been after me to get a physical for awhile now so last week Tuesday I went in for lab work. The next morning I was asked to come in for more blood work. High glucose numbers. Can I come in on Thursday to have more blood drawn?

I wasn’t really worried. I just got back from Vegas where I had chocolate doughnuts and cherry pie for breakfast.

Today I learned that the blood work from last week Thursday was for a three month period. My glucose numbers were high.

Not good.

I have to pickup a prescription tomorrow to get my glucose numbers down. Hopefully this with diet and excercise will help.

My husband and his family have diabetes so I’m kinda familiar with it, but not really.

That is them.

This is me.

I ordered Diabetes for dummies today on Amazon.

I have to make an appointment to go to Diabetes classes at the clinic next week.

I’m doing ok. Kind of scared. Kind of in denial.

I’m not sure what to feel.

My mom says everything happens for a reason. I wonder what the reason for this is.

I’m treating myself with love, hope and more love.

I’ll take it day by day for now. It’s the only way I can take it.

Any words of wisdom for me good, bad or otherwise?

I’d appreciate anything you want to share.

Thank you.

The Third 11 Items

The third 11 items is going to have to wait til next week.

I’m not sure if I have 11 more items to bring to the consignment shop, but I will continue to look.

I did take over 40 pieces of clothing that my step daughter left at our house when she moved to South Carolina to the consignment shop today. 

This doesn’t count for my items, but it feels good to get her stuff out of the house. I do have her permission to sell it. My husband wants that room to be his office again and then I can put an excercise bike in the sunroom that he is currently using as his office.

I’m sorry this is late. I thought I hit publish.

I must not of.

I’m still looking for 11 items so it might not be this week either.

Letting Go Of 100 Items Again

I opened up my Halloween bin over the weekend and didn’t like anything in it.

Not one item sparked joy.  I decided that I’m not keeping decorations that I  bought that was made by friends or family.  I’m not keeping anything that I don’t like.

Who cares if my house isn’t decorated for Halloween.

I want items in my life that bring me joy.

I’m letting go of everything in the bin.  The picture below shows what was in the bin.

For the last couple of weeks I’ve been thinking about letting go of 100 items again, but I wondered if I had enough stuff.

I think letting go of 9 items is a good place to start.

I do have one new Halloween item.  I bought a Holloween ghome a couple of weeks ago.  He’s so cute.  I couldn’t leave J. C. Penney without him.

He makes me smile.

That’s what I want more of in my life.

Things that make me smile.

I’ve been looking for new Halloween items, but nothing makes me smile.

I’m going keep looking.

I am taking the 9 items to the consignment shop today plus two other items that don’t bring me joy.

I plan on bringing 11 items tomorrow and 11 items on Wednesday to the consignment shop.

Letting go of 33 items in 3 days is my goal. 

Tomorrow I will show you what 11 items I am letting go of.

Time To Redo My Cabinet

Maybe a year ago I cleaned out and reorganized the tall cabinet I have in my kitchen.

I looked at the cabinet today and realized the bottom shelf is a mess and needs to be cleaned out.

Two weeks ago we bought an air fryer and I put it in the closet underneath the steps.

Last week after using the air fryer I realized storing it in the closet wasn’t going to work.  I really want it in the kitchen where it is easily accessible.

That’s when I realized the tall cabinet would be perfect.

Okay. I’m going to start cleaning the cabinet out. Where do I begin?

The first thing I’m going to do is empty the clear container with the candy in it and bring the candy to work.  There is also a box of fancy chocolate and a valentine’s day heart box of chocolate that I will bring to work.  Someone will eat it.

I dont like fancy chocolate.  I’m a m&m’s kinda girl.

I’m returning the egg cartons to my neighbor.  She brings us fresh eggs every week.  I love her!

I’m tossing the box of Girl Scout cookies I hid from my husband last year.  They taste crappy.

I’m keeping the empty yoplait and sour cream containers and putting the  in the drawer they belong in.

For christmas last year we received hot chocolate bombs with candy to put in the hot chocolate and coffee cups which is pictured below. I’m tossing the bombs.   I’m putting the cups in the consignment box. The Christmas bags are going in the goodwill box.

I’m keeping the first stack of rubbermaid dishes, but the stack to the right are going.  I don’t use them and don’t think I will.  I’m dontating them.

The end result is below.

It looks much better and it only took 5 minutes.

Yes I bought new cookies to replace the yucky box.  No need to hide them.  My husband doesn’t like them Lol.

It’s all good.

Sick Of Drama

I have a lot of drama in my life right now.

At work. At the trailer. At home.

And you know what? It’s really pissing me off.

Before menopause I was a pushover. I didn’t have clear boundaries. I let people walk all over me.

Now I don’t put up with anyone’s shit.

Before menopause if two people were fighting I would try to help them work through it. At work I would take up the slack and not say a word. I was glad I could help.

Now if two people are fighting I tell them to work it and walk away. I’m not getting involved especially if its over something stupid.

At work I treat people like they treat me. If theyleave the copier without any paper they can expect the same thing when theu come in. I don’t pick up the slack anymore. I don’t do what needs to be done. I don’t go the extra mile.

I’m getting to old to keep being “nice”.

The last couple weeks have been trying.

I just don’t give a shit like I used to.

Is that bad?

Am a bad person if I’m starting to put myself first?

I dont think so. I think its about damn time.

I dont want my life to be about them and their problems. Their anger. Their fears and lack of self confidence.

I want my life to be about me and what I want and need.

I want my life to be calm and happy. I want be loved and respected.

I want to have healthy boundaries and have people respect them.

I’m 56. I’m beginning to realize that I’m not going to live forever.

The time I have left is precious. It’s mine and I should be able to live it the way I want to.

I’m starting to get to know myself better on a deeper level. I’m starting to love myself in a way I never have before. I’m cutting myself some slack and taking risks.

I’m becoming the person I’ve always wanted to be.

Not everyone likes it and that’s ok.

I’m done living with other people’s drama.

Thanks for listening to me rant.

Possibly A New Direction

I haven’t posted in awhile nor have I posted/read a lot of blogs.

I haven’t been in the mood.

I’ve been thinking about what direction I want to take my blog in. I’m not sure. My direction in life has changed.

I’ve been working on a side hustle which i will talk about in my next post.

The last couple.of weeks have been exciting yet scary. I’ve been doing things that are totally out of my wheelhouse and that push me out of my comfort zone.

I’ve also starting working out and I’ve lost 4 pounds.

I’m moving forward and it’s a good thing

I tell you all about my new side hustle soon!

Gratitude Saturday

There are many things I’m grateful for today.

Our trailer

Our golf cart

Our awesome next door neighbors

The radio station that plays old America’s top 40.  Today I’m listening to the episode where the no. 6 song is Boogey Wonderland by earth wind and fire.  The week july 21 1979.

My brother, my brother in law and his wife, my sister in law and her family and friends who have sites close to ours.

I’m grateful that we have somewhere to go and relax and get away from everything and that we have friends and family to share it with

Now if you’ll excuse me I have to go dance to the no. 1 song on the countdown  Bad Girls by Donna Summer.