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We have been in our new house almost a year and a half. I was so excited to buy the house because it meant I had my own office. I could gave my own space to put my own stuff in.

Today I’m frustrated. I have been frustrated for awhile. My office just isn’t functioning the way I thought it would. I thought it would fall into place because I had the space. Silly me.

Above is the corner that I am unhappy with. I have nowhere to set the writing projects or any projects I am working on. That’s probably why I have stuff on the living room coffee table yet.

I need to put some thought into this.

What is the purpose of my office? This is a question I’ve been asking myself off and on for the last couple of weeks. I think if I can figure out the purpose I’ll know what to put in the corner.

There are three things I want my office to be. I would like my office to:

1. be my writing sanctuary.

2. have a place to explore who I am creatively and get to know my creative self better.

3. To have a space to put my writing projects and other creative projects on so they aren’t all over the living room.

Right now my office is none of these things and that needs to change.

I’ll let you know how things go and show you pics at that time.

Have a great day!

I had to go to Meijer after work tonight. Usually I wait at an open register until someone notices me and checks me out.

The only problem is that they didn’t have any open checkouts tonight. You know, the kind where the cashier actually checks you out instead of watching you do her job.

I think this whole self checkout is absolutely ridiculous.

Did I mention I hate it?

Why should I check myself out? I can see if I want to do this or if I like to do this, but I dont. I’d rather not check myself out. That’s what they get paid to do or used to get paid to do. Now they get paid to watch and assist you.

I don’t understand why the cashier can stand and watch me check out, but she can’t check me out. She gets paid to stand there and watch me do her work. There’s something wrong with this picture.

Do you remember a couple of years ago when the big hype was that kids don’t know how to play with other kids because they are playing with their electronics by themselves?

Aren’t we headed in the same direction here? We aren’t communicating with the cashier unless we have a problem. We can run in and out of the store without talking to anyone by doing everything ourselves.

Do you see where I am headed here?

I like to go to the store and talk to my favorite cashier. There’s a connection there and I feel we are losing this. The whole talking and sharing thing.

I can see if you need to run in for one or two items and don’t want to stand in line to check out then it’s fine to go through self check, but I dont feel its for a person with more than 10 items.

You are already buying their products and spending your hard earned money in their store now they want you to work for free as well? That’s crap.

I’m not a big fan of self checkout so whenever I can make a cashier check me out I do.

Maybe some day my attitude will change toward this but until this happens my opinion stands.

I hate checking myself out and don’t do it unless I absolutely have to. It’s their job. Not mine.

End of story.

Here’s a list of the nice things I did for myself the first 15 days of August. No. 1 is what I did for myself. No. 2 is my writing self. No. 3 is my money self.

August 1

1. I didn’t work overtime.
2. Wrote blog post.
3. Balanced my checkbook.

August 2

1. I didn’t work overtime and I didn’t sign up for Saturday. 2. If I didn’t do anything I’m leaving it blank. 3.

August 3

1. Listened to story of Henry Ford on public radio on my way home from trailer. Very interesting. 2. Wrote for an hour. 3. Wrote in my journal about money issues.

August 4

1. Went to a fry out at my brother’s house. 2. Looked at my writing goals for the rest of the year. Not on track, but getting there. 3. Printed off Tracking My Money from RichBitch.com. I love her!

August 5

1. Slept in. 2. 3.

August 6

1. I started work at 2 p.m. instead of 1. No overtime for me today. 2. Started to reconfigure my office to make it more functional. 3. Worked on garage sale stuff.

August 7

1. 2. Started to read a writing book. Creative Visualization for Writers. 3. Gave myself permission to be wealthy. I have issues with it being ok for me to have more than enough money.

August 8

1. More purging. 2. Wrote blog post. 3. Wrote out checks and figured out register because usually I don’t.

August 9

1. Went to garage sales. 2. Wrote blog post on phone. 3. Dropped off my garage sale stuff by my brother’s house.

August 10

1. Had Date Day with my husband. We went to a truck show. Had a blast! 2. 3. Found my husband shorts at Kohl’s for 50% off. Yeah!

August 11

1. Cut down 7 trees. We no longer have to worry about them falling on the college’s power grid. Yeah! 2. 3. Don’t need to spend money on wood for the fire pit at home or trailer. Have plenty!

August 12

1. 2. Wrote for an 1 1/2 at the library. 3. Made $6.00 at the garage sale on Friday.

August 13

1. Slept in. 2. Typed a draft of article I’m working on. 3.

August 14

1. Slept in. 70 degrees. Great sleeping weather! 2. Wrote a schedule of writing projects. 3.

August 15

1. 2. Wrote notes for a post on how nonfunctional my office is. 3.

Wow! This post is not how I thought it would turn out. I thought it would be more exciting and motivating.

It’s not very exciting. I didn’t get a lot of writing done. I’ve been working on making my office more functional.

I did have a couple of ah!! moments here stuff clicked and I moved a step forward on my path.

I realized through my journal pages that I have a lot of money blocks/beliefs. Such as: I can’t make more money than my parents and I can’t have money because I’m ugly. I collected these wonderful beliefs somewhere along the line and now it’s time to let them go. I’m working on it.

I’m learning more about myself every day and that is cool. Making myself happy has made me stronger and more vocal. I know what I want and I can tell you what I want which is something I struggled with in the past.

All in all was a good 15 days.

I cant wait to se what the next 15 days bring!

I love it and couldn’t wait to share it with you!

Here’s the painted coffee table.

Since I loved the color (it’s so pretty!) I decided to paint everything the same color. It turned out amazing!

I’m so proud of myself!

Thanks for reading and have a great day!

I’m doing something I have never done before. I’m taking a risk and hoping for the best.

I’m painting a coffee table for my office today.

Sorry the picture isn’t the greatest but it gives you an idea of what I’m painting. There is a wooden door that goes on the middle cabinet that my husband took off.

I’m definately going out of my comfort zone today. I’m nervous but excited.

I’ll let you know if what I picture in my head is going to work. I’m thinking about painting the door and the legs yellow and the rest of it teal. I would like to stencil words or something on the top of it in yellow.

I’m home alone today so you’ll never know what might happen.

Wish me luck!

I realized last Friday morning while garage saling that being nice to myself and all of the purging and exploring I have been doing is helping me create the next chapter of my life.

I didnt realize this until now but it makes sense.

Purging those items unclogged my path and opened new doors for me. Being nice to myself and exploring have helped me figure what I like and what I need and what is important to me.

It has opened my eyes.

Why wouldnt I be creating a new chapter? I’m not the same person that I was. I know the direction I want to go in. I know what I want to do. I know who I want to be.

There is one secret I’ve told very few people and I need to being that into the open. It’s not a bad thing. In fact, it’s a good thing. I dont know why I’ve kept quiet about it for so long. It scares the shit out of me to finally tell people because I’m afraid of what their reaction might me but I need to bring it out into the open. When I’m ready I will write a post about it.

Until then….

I dont know all this new chapter entails, but I’m excited about it and wonder what amazing things it will bring.

I’m amazed at how tall the corn is!

I think why I find this interesting is because it reminds me of life. Sometimes we grow a little, sometimes a lot or not at all.

It all depends on how we love, encourage and treat ourselves. It’s what kind of people we have in our lives and allow them to treat us.

Every day we can choose to grow or to stay in the same hole. We can choose love, hope and peace or we can push it away. The choice is ours and no one else’s. We are the driver of our vessel.

The corn grew because it had plenty of sun and water and prayers and God. Isn’t it amazing what a sun and water and prayers and God (or higher power) can do?

Being nice to myself is helping me grow. I’ve noticed little changes. I am nicer to myself. I am more patient with myself. I’m eating healthier. I feel stronger emotionally.

I bought this cute zipper bag because I liked what it said.

Grow.

I think this is going to be my word for the rest of 2019.

Grow.

I choose to grow.