I’m not feeling well today so I called in sick. This is the first time I have called in sick all year.
I feel guilty.
It’s not that I’m not sick. I have some kind of stomach bug. I took a day of vacation yesterday because I didn’t feel good and I called in today.
Staying home today is the nice thing I am doing for myself today.
Could I have gone in today and struggled through the day? Yes. I almost called my boss and asked if I could come in after I called in.
Why is it so hard to be nice to myself when it comes to work? I know they depend on me but I depend on me too. I know I’m expected to be there but I get five call ins a a year. This is the 2nd one i used. I used the first one because the temperature was- 15 below. If I get the days I should be able to use them when and for whatever reason I want to.
Yes, there is the money issue. I get that. I’m losing eight hours of pay but this is something I’m working on too. I’m working on believing in an abundant universe instead of living with my scarcity thinking. I’m working on money coming into my life from different sources instead of one. I wrote about this in my journal this morning.
Today I’m giving my body a chance to rest and recoup from the hot, muggy weather and 10 hour work days. I just woke up from nap. Its 1:46 PM. I have the windows open and there is a wonderful cool breeze blowing in. I’m totally relaxed. The birds are chirping and an occasional tractor drives by my house.
This is exactly what I needed. I’m going to write this afternoon and watch my favorite TV shows tonight.
Do I deserve this? Hell ya!
This has been the most difficult day for me being nice to myself but I have learned a lot. I have learned my health is more important than living by corporate rules. (Within reason of course). I deserve to be treated nicely by myself and by my place of employment. It’s time to rethink this whole work and money thing to see if I can come up with something that fits me better job wise.
Figuring this out would be doing something really nice to myself.
I’m getting really good at being nice to myself.
In her book You Are A Badass At Making Money, Jen Sincero talks about writing down your perfect day and seeing it clearly in your mind. It includes career wise, health wise and anything else that is important to you. I love this book and highly recommend it. Jen is a badass.
I think I will do this today. Staying home today to contemplate a job change and figuring out steps to get to this change is kind of funny. They would never think of me leaving. Hell, I’ve been with the company for almost 23 years.
I’ve always been a follow the rules kind of girl and this sometimes drives my husband crazy because he thinks i need to think outside of the box once in awhile. I’m going to take his advise today and think outside if the box.
Maybe I’ll come up with an escape from work plan. This scares me to death but I can think about it today. I dont have to hand in my resignation letter tomorrow, but I can think about it today.
What a wonderful day off.