The First 15 Days of August

Here’s a list of the nice things I did for myself the first 15 days of August. No. 1 is what I did for myself. No. 2 is my writing self. No. 3 is my money self.

August 1

  1. I didn’t work overtime.
  2. Wrote blog post.
  3. Balanced my checkbook.

August 2

1. I didn’t work overtime and I didn’t sign up for Saturday. 2. If I didn’t do anything I’m leaving it blank. 3.

August 3

1. Listened to story of Henry Ford on public radio on my way home from trailer. Very interesting. 2. Wrote for an hour. 3. Wrote in my journal about money issues.

August 4

1. Went to a fry out at my brother’s house. 2. Looked at my writing goals for the rest of the year. Not on track, but getting there. 3. Printed off Tracking My Money from RichBitch.com. I love her!

August 5

1. Slept in. 2. 3.

August 6

1. I started work at 2 p.m. instead of 1. No overtime for me today. 2. Started to reconfigure my office to make it more functional. 3. Worked on garage sale stuff.

August 7

1. 2. Started to read a writing book. Creative Visualization for Writers. 3. Gave myself permission to be wealthy. I have issues with it being ok for me to have more than enough money.

August 8

1. More purging. 2. Wrote blog post. 3. Wrote out checks and figured out register because usually I don’t.

August 9

1. Went to garage sales. 2. Wrote blog post on phone. 3. Dropped off my garage sale stuff by my brother’s house.

August 10

1. Had Date Day with my husband. We went to a truck show. Had a blast! 2. 3. Found my husband shorts at Kohl’s for 50% off. Yeah!

August 11

1. Cut down 7 trees. We no longer have to worry about them falling on the college’s power grid. Yeah! 2. 3. Don’t need to spend money on wood for the fire pit at home or trailer. Have plenty!

August 12

1. 2. Wrote for an 1 1/2 at the library. 3. Made $6.00 at the garage sale on Friday.

August 13

1. Slept in. 2. Typed a draft of article I’m working on. 3.

August 14

1. Slept in. 70 degrees. Great sleeping weather! 2. Wrote a schedule of writing projects. 3.

August 15

1. 2. Wrote notes for a post on how nonfunctional my office is. 3.

Wow! This post is not how I thought it would turn out. I thought it would be more exciting and motivating.

It’s not very exciting. I didn’t get a lot of writing done. I’ve been working on making my office more functional.

I did have a couple of ah!! moments here stuff clicked and I moved a step forward on my path.

I realized through my journal pages that I have a lot of money blocks/beliefs. Such as: I can’t make more money than my parents and I can’t have money because I’m ugly. I collected these wonderful beliefs somewhere along the line and now it’s time to let them go. I’m working on it.

I’m learning more about myself every day and that is cool. Making myself happy has made me stronger and more vocal. I know what I want and I can tell you what I want which is something I struggled with in the past.

All in all was a good 15 days.

I cant wait to se what the next 15 days bring!

QP My Painting Project

I’m doing something I have never done before. I’m taking a risk and hoping for the best.

I’m painting a coffee table for my office today.

Sorry the picture isn’t the greatest but it gives you an idea of what I’m painting. There is a wooden door that goes on the middle cabinet that my husband took off.

I’m definately going out of my comfort zone today. I’m nervous but excited.

I’ll let you know if what I picture in my head is going to work. I’m thinking about painting the door and the legs yellow and the rest of it teal. I would like to stencil words or something on the top of it in yellow.

I’m home alone today so you’ll never know what might happen.

Wish me luck!

QP. I’m Creating The Next Chapter Of My Life

I realized last Friday morning while garage saling that being nice to myself and all of the purging and exploring I have been doing is helping me create the next chapter of my life.

I didnt realize this until now but it makes sense.

Purging those items unclogged my path and opened new doors for me. Being nice to myself and exploring have helped me figure what I like and what I need and what is important to me.

It has opened my eyes.

Why wouldnt I be creating a new chapter? I’m not the same person that I was. I know the direction I want to go in. I know what I want to do. I know who I want to be.

There is one secret I’ve told very few people and I need to being that into the open. It’s not a bad thing. In fact, it’s a good thing. I dont know why I’ve kept quiet about it for so long. It scares the shit out of me to finally tell people because I’m afraid of what their reaction might me but I need to bring it out into the open. When I’m ready I will write a post about it.

Until then….

I dont know all this new chapter entails, but I’m excited about it and wonder what amazing things it will bring.

How Corn Grows

I’m amazed at how tall the corn is!

I think why I find this interesting is because it reminds me of life. Sometimes we grow a little, sometimes a lot or not at all.

It all depends on how we love, encourage and treat ourselves. It’s what kind of people we have in our lives and allow them to treat us.

Every day we can choose to grow or to stay in the same hole. We can choose love, hope and peace or we can push it away. The choice is ours and no one else’s. We are the driver of our vessel.

The corn grew because it had plenty of sun and water and prayers and God. Isn’t it amazing what a sun and water and prayers and God (or higher power) can do?

Being nice to myself is helping me grow. I’ve noticed little changes. I am nicer to myself. I am more patient with myself. I’m eating healthier. I feel stronger emotionally.

I bought this cute zipper bag because I liked what it said.

Grow.

I think this is going to be my word for the rest of 2019.

Grow.

I choose to grow.

Be Nice to Chrissy Month

I decided to make July “Be Nice To Chrissy” Month and do something nice for myself every day.  Originally I was going to do it for a week, but it’s been so fun that I decided I was going to do it for the whole month of July.

At first I thought coming up with something nice for myself was going to be hard, but it’s been pretty easy and enjoyable.

Here’s a list of the nice things I have done for self.  The gsandwhich suggested I post the nice things for a week.  Well, time got away from me so I’m posting for all of July.  Thanks gsandwhich for the great suggestion.  I love your blog!

July 1st     I bought myself Chakra Essential Oils at the Karma and Luck store in Las Vegas.  I love, love, love this store.  I could spend lots and lots of money in this store.

July 2nd   I wrote for two hours on the flight home

July 3rd   I drove to the trailer after work.

July 4th    I floated on my swan on the pond with two of my sister in laws and her sister in law for an hour.  Very relaxing.

July 5th    I went to my acupuncture appointment.  I love going.  It feels like I’m at the spa the moment I walk in the door.  The office smells wonderful because there is always some kind of essential oil in the diffuser.  I love the relaxing music – usually instrumental – that is playing.  There is a heating pad under my back when I lay on the table which feels amazing.  I even get oils massaged into my arms, feet, hands, legs and shoulders after she pulls the needles.  I leave there feeling amazing and refreshed.

July 6th  I laid in bed for an extra hour at the trailer while I listened to the freeway.  I don’t know why but this sound relaxes me.  Our campsite is about four blocks from the freeway.  I can’t see it, but I love to listen to it.

July 7th   I went shopping for 2 1/2 hours in town by myself.

July 8th   I bought myself two lottery tickets.  I paid $6 and won $18.

July 9th   I ate peas for supper.  Steve hates peas.  I love them.  Our food differences are a whole different post.

July 10th  I gave health and beauty items and food to our church for the victims of the fire in the apartment building next to my brother’s house.

July 11th  Email purge.   This felt so good.

July 12th   I ate egg rolls for supper.  One of the guys at work was selling them at work.  I bought 12.  Ate 2.  And no.  I didn’t share.

July 13th   I laughed a lot at the trailer.  I needed it after working a 8 hour mandatory Saturday.

July 14th    I found my favorite TUL pens on clearance at Office Depot and I bought them.  Even though I have five hundred other pens, I still bought them.

July 15th   I took my time getting up and moving today.   Relaxed and sat in the chair for an hour and did nothing.

July 16th.   I cancelled my hair appointment so I could sleep in.  My stylist understands about my schedule and doesn’t get mad if I cancel.  She was my purging partner for awhile.

July 17th    I went to the farmer’s market the with my mom and niece.  Fresh beans and peas.  I ate half of my peas before we left the park!  Love them!

July 18th    I didn’t sign up for overtime on Saturday.  28 hours of overtime for two weeks is more than enough for me.

July 19th    I worked 9 hours instead of ten.

July 20th    My husband and I ate my favorite restaurant.  This place has the best salad bar and the best homemade soups.  Of course there are peas on the salad bar.

July 21st     I cleaned and organized my deck box where I keep my bird food and gardening tools.  It was a mess and it was driving me crazy.

July 22nd    I didn’t feel good so I took a day of vacation to rest and recoup.

July 23rd.    I still didn’t feel good so I called in sick to rest and recoup.

July 24th.    I ate a Dairy Queen Buster Bar today at lunch.   It was a treat from my employer.  I love Ice Cream Day at work.

July 25th.   I walked along the Board Walk with my niece and mom.  We ate lunch outside at this cute little restaurant along the Board Walk.

July 26th.    I went the annual sidewalk sale at a small high end mall a few towns over.  There are two stores that have a nice selection of books I love.

July 27th.    I had a night full of laughter and relaxation at the campground.

July 28th.    I cleaned and organized my office.

July 29th.   ! spent an hour at and a half at my favorite library writing, organizing and scheduling and doing some research for my blog posts for August.  I now have a schedule.  Yeah!

July 30th     I worked 8 hours today.

July 31st.     I worked 8 hours today and every day this week.

I know these things aren’t anything truly amazing, but they have helped my perspective on things.  It’s made me more aware of what I like and don’t like and what truly makes me happy.

Upon waking I don’t think about my to do list.  I think about the one nice thing I am going to do for myself and kinda plan my day around that.  I think I am happier.  Doing one nice thing for myself makes me feel like a Queen because I am putting myself first.  That’s something I like to focus on.

But on the flip side of this, I’m realizing how my job isn’t one of the things I enjoy.  Instead of just spending 8 or 10 hours on the job, I’m looking at what I do and how much time I spend on doing each thing.  I have several different jobs I do every day.  Some days it is a juggling act and some days flow smootly.  I guess it’s not the job itself.  It’s parts of my job.  I’m trying to figure out I can stop doing the parts of my job I don’t like and do more of the jobs I like.  Maybe I will talk to my boss about that.

This past month has really opened my eyes to what my life really consists of and what I spend my time on.  I realized that there are some things I could stop doing to make time for what I truly love.

That’s the goal.  To spend my days doing what I love.

 

 

The Journey To Myself

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do in the last five months of 2019.

5 months.  22 weeks.  153 days.

I’ve decided to concentrate on the days.  For the 31 days of August, I’ve decided to continue on the journey to myself.  I’m going to continue to be nice to myself with a twist.  I’ve decided to add two new parts of myself I’m going to be nice to.  They are my writing self and my money self.

Every day I’m going to do one nice thing for myself, my money self and my writing self.  The reason why I added these two is because I think I’ve been neglecting these areas of myself and I would like to get to know them better.  I’m not as in touch with my writing self or my money self as I would like to be.  I’m hoping that bringing attention to these two areas will bring me closer to who I want to be.

I’m excited to do this, but at the same time, a little hesitant because I’m used to giving those two parts of myself attention.   Sure, I write this blog and work on other writing projects and I am good with my money, but I think in these two areas I just skim the surface of what I could be.  I guess, in a way, reaching my potential scares me because I have to put myself out there and show more of myself to the world and I’m not used to doing that.

I write, but it’s in private.  Only my counselor knows about this blog.  My family and husband know about my writing, but I have told no one else.  Not my coworkers.  Not my in laws.  I think it’s time I come out of the shadows and into the light.  My body tingles with fear.

Yes, have been hiding.  Growing up I was told not to let my let my light shine.  Guess what?  In August, I’m going to try to let a little bit more of my light shine.  I think I’m going to use this as my theme for August.

Letting More Of My Light Shine.

I like that.

What a great way to start the month!  I’m scared, but it’s time to deal with that fear.  Off I go to write in my journal.

Have a great day everyone!