Why Am I Hanging On To The Calendar Pages?

I didn’t toss my calendar pages.

I kept them.

I’m hoping to learn something.

I think I am looking for something in the words on the pages. The problem is that I don’t know what that something is.

After thinking about this for awhile I came up with a list if my my why’s.  They are as follows:

Hope

Motivation

Inspiration

A solution to my problem(s).

A road map to help me get to where I want to be.

What I have been doing is reading 20 or 30 pages at a time and saving what speaks to me and tossing the rest.

Within the pages I think I’m looking for certain words or feelings. Maybe a pattern of something.

Or maybe I have no clue of what I am looking for at all.

I’ll let you know what I have found in an upcoming post.

10 More Items Gone

As I was cleaning over the weekend I found 10 more items to let go of.

2 ice cream buckets

1 pen from Vegas that never worked but it was cool looking

3/4 of a package of poise liners

1/2 box of dryer sheets that I don’t like the smell of

1 insulated cup from menards

1 light up Mason jar with handle

1 half used tube of hand lotion

A decorative spoon I had on my desk

I’m a little closer to my goal.

25 + 10 = 35

65 more to go!

Overwhelmed

Below is a picture of what I took out of one of the cubes in my office.

WTF????

Yesterday I took I couple of the small bins downstairs but the more I thought about it the more I thought I should go through it.

This morning I took the rest out of the cube and brought the bins up from the basement and laid everything out on the living room floor.

That’s what I came up with.

How in the heck did I get so much stuff????

Do I really need all of the colored pencils?

What was I thinking?

I am totally overwhelmed. I can’t believe I have all of this stuff.

I know I wanted to learn how to draw and I needed different colors and shades, but this is ridiculous.

OMG! There are metallic, neon and regular colored pencils. Gel pens. Metallic colored pens.

What the heck? Did I think I was to run out?

Here’s what I decided to keep.

Here’s what I decided to let go of

I feel better!

I’ll take some of the colored pencils by my next door neighbor and see if she wants them for her grandkids. I’m going to sell a couple of items at my mom’s next garage sale and donate the rest to the school.

This makes me happy!

I’m going to add 13 more items to my list.

12 yesterday. 13 today. 25 total.

75 more to go!

I can definately let go of 100 items.

I Have A Letting Go Of Stuff Bug Up My Butt Again

There is too much stuff in our house again.

About a month ago I noticed the clutter when I had to clean out the two drawers in my coffee table (i was getting it ready to sell) and didn’t know what to do with all if the pens and pencils and other miscellaneous stuff I had stored in there.

Clutter suffocates.  I actually felt closed in when I was dealing with the drawers.  Mainly because I didn’t know what to do with all of the stuff.  i didnt have a place for it to go and i didnt know what to do about it. I never really felt like that before.  Out of control.  Embarassed that I had all of that stuff. 

I should know better right?

My husband commented two weeks ago that we had stuff in the kitchen cupboards that we aren’t using and we should probably get rid of.

I say we, but I know it’s going to be mostly me.  if he’s ready to let go, I will do the leg work.

I laid awake one night while we were in South Carolina thinking about where I would start decluttering and what I would do.

I decided to start in the basement. We are getting some work done on our sewer pipes sometime this week so I decided to clean up my steel table first so it doesn’t look that bad in that area.

It took me an hour but I got it under control.  I wish I would have taken a pic but I didn’t.  At least it wasn’t as bad as last time.

I let go of 12 items.

It feels good to have the table clutter free.

Next I’m going to work on organzing the cubes in my office. Some of my drawing pencils and stuff are going to be put on the steel table.  My pencils and stuff are small plastic bins so it will be neatly stored.

I need to reorganize my cubes to fit my business stuff in.

The goal I have for my office is to have everything organized so I can grab what I need and go to work.  It’s getting there but I still have a ways to go.

I will definitely have to let go of some stuff in my office.  I have some things in mind to let go of.

I’ve been thinking about letting go of 100 items again.

We’ll see how it goes.

Battle

I love dragons and I usually bring one home from Vegas every trip.

The dragon picture below is the one I brought home yesterday.

This dragon spoke to me because she looks like she just returned from battle.

She kind of reminds me of me.

I had to let of limitations and old beliefs as I figure out my new business. I feel this is what the coffin represents. Somewhere to put the old me that has died.

I love how she is laying on the top of the coffin resting. She still has her battle gear on so maybe she has more battles ahead.

I get that. As I let go of the past I, too, rest. Letting go is kind of like battle except its with myself

I love the crystal ball. Maybe she’s looking into it wondering what the future holds.

I, too, wonder what the future holds. I see good things. A profitable side hustle. Fun, honest and easy to work with customers.

A bright future.

The top of the coffin lifts off.

I’m not sure what I am going to put in it.

I’ll have to think about that for awhile.

I love the design on the bottom of the coffin. It’s so cool.

I named her Battle. Maybe she will tell what she wants inside. Until then it’s going to stay empty.

For now I’m going keep letting go, fighting for what is mine, being grateful for what I have and keep moving forward