Doubting Myself

I am in my favorite writing spot working on my flyer.

It’s a gloomy day. It’s snowing and the skies are gray.

Just like my mood.

As I write my thoughts on paper, doubts come in.

You’re not smart enough to have your own business.

No one else in your family has their own business so why do you think you can?

Maybe I should give up before I start. Will this really go any where?

Will Tara, my real estate agent, laugh at my flyer?

Will it be good enough or will she tell me to work on it some more?

Some days, like today, it’s hard not to crawl back under the covers and let doubt rule.

I’ve let these doubts rule most my life.

Until now.

Do I know what the future holds?


Do I know if my business will make it?


What I have learned in the last couple of weeks is that have to push doubt aside and get out of bed and get moving.

I edited my flyer today.

Am I 100% happy with it?


But I am closer to my goal.

Am I scared to show this part of me to the world?

Yes, I am, but it will be ok.

When I get home tonight I will retype it and see what I have. I can play with fonts and colors. I can edit it again.

In time I will come up with something I’m happy with.

Until then I will keep moving forward.

I made progress today. I got out of bed and put words on the page.

My doubts didn’t win.

I am happy with this


I love dragons and I usually bring one home from Vegas every trip.

The dragon picture below is the one I brought home yesterday.

This dragon spoke to me because she looks like she just returned from battle.

She kind of reminds me of me.

I had to let of limitations and old beliefs as I figure out my new business. I feel this is what the coffin represents. Somewhere to put the old me that has died.

I love how she is laying on the top of the coffin resting. She still has her battle gear on so maybe she has more battles ahead.

I get that. As I let go of the past I, too, rest. Letting go is kind of like battle except its with myself

I love the crystal ball. Maybe she’s looking into it wondering what the future holds.

I, too, wonder what the future holds. I see good things. A profitable side hustle. Fun, honest and easy to work with customers.

A bright future.

The top of the coffin lifts off.

I’m not sure what I am going to put in it.

I’ll have to think about that for awhile.

I love the design on the bottom of the coffin. It’s so cool.

I named her Battle. Maybe she will tell what she wants inside. Until then it’s going to stay empty.

For now I’m going keep letting go, fighting for what is mine, being grateful for what I have and keep moving forward

Fun Friday: Rich Little Piggies

My husband and I got home from Vegas early this morning.

3:23 am to be exact.

I love Vegas. I love the atmosphere. The energy. The vibe. The heartbeat.

For me going to Vegas is fun!

This time we took my brother in law, David. He is fun. He has this loud,) giant laugh that makes me laugh. He is funny. Goofy.

My husband, David and I had so much fun playing the slot machine in the photo below.

The pigs start out small. As you spin you get coins that go into the pig and the pigs get bigger and bigger and at a certain point the pigs pop.

I think (hope) I broke even on these machines. It was the machine we played at a couple of casinos along the strip.

It was my favorite.

The pigs are so cute. They dance on the screen and if you touch the screen they oink.

We spent hours and many dollars on these machines.

When I play the slots I look for machines that stimulate my mind and that are fun. When I gamble I just don’t want to dump my money in a machine. I want to play. To think. To laugh.

We walked through casinos laughing and looking for fat pigs to pop.

I enjoyed my vacation.

It was fun!

Fun Friday: Designing My Business Flyer

While I was sitting at the car dealer yesterday getting my oil changed I was working on my business flyer I wrote a couple of months ago.


As I was researching business flyers (thank God for Google!) I realized how blah it was.

It needs to be better.

A lot better.

It needs to show more of who I am and what my talents are.

As I looked through other business flyers I started asking myself questions.

Why am I keeping myself small when I can be BIG?

Why can’t I draw or paint out my flyer on paper and let my ideas fly before putting it in the flyer?

Why am I not putting who I really am into what I am creating?

Why am I limiting myself?

These are the answers I’m getting in my head.

We aren’t those kind if people. We work in factories.

Who do you think you are?

You’re not a business person.

You’re not suppose to let your light shine. You’re suppose to be quiet in the corner.

Blah. Blah. Blah.

Screw those statements from my past. I’m not that person anymore

I am a business woman and I will be successful.

I am going to have fun inventing myself as I invent my business. (Love this statement)

I’m going to have fun creating my business flyer as I crush my old beliefs.

What are you having fun creating today?

I will post my flyer as soon as I finish it.

Have a fun day!

Fun Friday: The To Do List For LYLO

I’m so excited.

The to do list for LYLO is long, but it’s going to be fun.

Don’t let me fool you there’s other emotions going on here.




I’m feeling all of the emotions and letting them go.

Enough procrastinating.

Here’s the list of things to do:

Figure out logo and font of logo. This is going to be fun. I love going through the different font styles. I love how some are bold, some are curvy and fancy and some are just blah.

Figure out business cards.

Get a post office box.

Finish the details on my insurance. I have an appointment on April 15 (Good Friday) to pay for the insurance. This one is almost complete.

Put an ad on Craigslist.

Get the flyer ready and give to Tara. My real estate agent, Tara, is going to hand out business flyers for me. Isn’t that sweet? Maybe I will get my first customer through her.

Get a Tax ID no.

Figure out of a filing system for my business papers.

Figure out a system that lists all of my expenses and that stuff.

Figure out what I supplies (label maker, tape, etc.) I need

Get my client questionnaire finished. I want to have my clients fill out a questionnaire so I know their needs and can figure out action plan.

Figure out what I need for my first consult.

Find my first client.

Wow! That’s quite the list.

Today I’m working on the getting a post office box. I’ve already been to two post offices in different city/town and going to a 3rd today. Each post office has different prices for their boxes. I want to check out all three before I chose. $100 for the year. Not bad.

Anything I missed? Any suggestions?

Feel free to comment. I value your input.


It’s Official!

The name of my business is Lighten Your Load Organizing.

I chose LYLO because it was the only domain name that wasn’t taken on Go Daddy and if I want a website at a later date I should have a domain name that matches my business name.

I had my heart set on Organized Chaos, but the business name was taken and so was the domain name. I could buy the domain name for $24,000.

No thanks.

Yesterday morning I registered my LLC and my EIN. It only took an hour and a half. Not bad.

So my business is.offically a business.

I’m excited!

Now I just have to figure out how to get my first customer.

I’m thinking about not charging my first customer and use it as a trail run. Or maybe ask them to pay me what they think is fair if they are happy with the job I did or not at all if I sucked.

I have somethings to do between now and then. I’ll let you know what those things are tomorrow.

I have a lot to think about…..

I Forgot To Share My Good News

A month ago I had an appointment with my diabetes doctor.

It was fantastic!!!

My weight went from 186 in November to 173 in February. When I started working out with the girls from work in July I weighed 205. I’m happy with my weight loss.

My A1C went from 11.4 to 7.3.

My doctor was extrmemly happy. He said I made his day!

I was extremely happy. I made my day!

It was very hard to give up my white bread and soda and sugar, but I did it.

I’m really proud of my self.

Yay me!!

Fun Friday:  Naming My Business

I’m trying to see decide what I should name my business.

Below are the names I’m thinking about.

An Organized Lady

One Organized Lady

The Organizing Lady

Lighten Your Load

Open Spaces Organizing

Organized Chaos

Everything In Its Place.

I’m torn between these two.

Organized Chaos


Open Spaces Organizing.

I’m leaning toward Organized Chaos.

Open Spaces Organizing  is practical.  It tells a story. Simple.

Organized Chaos is a little on the sassy side.  It also tells a story.  It just isn’t that obvious.  It’s the name I keep coming back to.

What are your thoughts? 

What name do you like?

Weekly Goal: A Little Side Hustle

I’ve been thinking about two things lately. 

The first thing is to blog about having a weekly goal that I share with you. 

A goal and what I plan to accomplish that week.  Maybe the steps I plan to take or what I learned during the week.

I’m not sure how this will turn out but I’m going to give it a shot. 

The second thing is starting a side hustle.

The side hustle I want to start is a home organization business.  I think I blogged about it before, but I don’t remember when.

Actually, it is more of an item purging business. I would help people let go of possessions and then organize their homes.

Covid was the reason I didn’t follow through originally.  I am vaccinated and boosted but I didn’t feel comfortable going into people’s houses and touching their things.

Now that Covid has subsided (for the moment) I feel it’s time to move forward with the idea.

My goals for the week are:

To go through my notes I have on my side hustle and organize them.

To fill out paperwork for an LLC in Wisconsin.

To complete my ad to give to my real estate agent, Tara, who will pass it out it to her clients.

To do some research on business cards and what information I need to put on the cards.

To figure out a questionnaire to ask my clients so I know their needs and how to help them.

Add a business page to my Facebook page.

As I write this, I think its going to take more than a week to achieve my goals. There is a lot to do.

I’ll let you know how things go.

One more thing…..

I am totally terrified.