I have to admit the deeper I get into letting go of stuff the more anxiety I have.
My mind keeps thinking…..
Why am I doing this?
What am I doing?
Am I doing the right thing?
What the hell am I doing?
100 items? Really?
Will I be able to tell a difference in my house once these items are gone?
The biggest question I have is what will I do if I need something that I brought to the thrift store or sold?
This question scares the crap out of me even though I probably haven’t touched any of those items in over a year. For some reason these items are comfort. They are a part of me and my house. A part of me wants that wants to hang on and let everything stay the same
My head sometimes screams Who cares if the items are collecting dust and we don’t use them. We should still keep them. You’re freaking me out. What are we doing to do with the empty space?
I didn’t realize doing this would bring up so much fear and anxiety.
But on the flip side I can feel myself letting go. Kinda relaxing.
It feels like that little imaginary string that holds my life together is starting to unravel.
Maybe it’s time to let go and see what happens.
Last night at work I felt myself deep breathing a lot. I kept reminding myself off and on to just let go. Let it all go. It’s ok. Just let it go.
I hope letting go is making room in my life for me to grow and change and bring more of me out into the light.
Stuff is/was clogging my life. If my life is clogged no new can come in.
If I want the new to come in, I have to let go of the old. Let go and breathe. Wish it will and move on.
Somtimes easier said than done.
Today I’m letting go of two plastic bins. I sold them this morning.
I am also letting go of tea lights. I had 15 tea lights. I’m keeping 6. I’m also letting go of a kitchen utensil I don’t use.
Even though I’m scared and I don’t know where this journey is taking me, I’m going to continue to move forward.
I cant help but to wonder where I will be on October 31st.
Will I feel lighter?
Will anything have changed?
Will something fun have come into my life?
I’m kinda excited to see where I will be on October 31st!
Thanks for being with me on my journey. 😊❤