A New Start

Its July 2nd.

With a new month and the 2nd half the 2020 starting, I’m starting over.

The first half of the year kinda sucked.

I think I’ve done enough soul searching for the whole year. I’m emotionally drained and honestly kinda lost.

I’m not continuing my word of the week or my drawing. I lost my focus.

I’d rather be writing.

I think I’m going to deal with my emotions and my emotional journey and write about it in my blog as I go. I’ve had a lot of anger and fear come to the surface. Alot of emotion from my childhood that I thought I had dealt with a long time ago that has resurfaced.

Also, about a week and a half ago my cousin, Od, fell off the roof while roofing his mom’s house. He had a stroke on the roof and that’s why he fell off. He was paralyzed on his right side and if kept alive he would be in a nursing home for the rest of his life. His family lovingly took him off life support Sunday night per his wishes and he passed on Monday. Even though I know he’s in a better place, I’m having a hard time with this. He was one of my favorite boy cousins. I didn’t see him often but he will always hold a special place in my heart. He was funny and always making me smile. Luckily, I work with a good friend of his and his family and we’ve been able to share happy memories and laugh to help us deal with our grief.

My husband and i are going to the trailer tomorrow for the weekend. I’m going to float on my swan and relax with family and friends.

I’m taking life one day at a time and not taking anything for granted because no one knows how much time each of us has on this planet.

6 thoughts on “A New Start”

  1. Thank you for sharing such a hard experience. There is healing in time, but also healing in talking about things. Brings emotions into the 3rd dimension so we can look at them and learn how to deal with them. Lets keep sharing. And writing.

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