As I went to sleep Tuesday night I remembered what my husband’s anger means. It means we lost each other. We put our relationship last. Errands and other stuff on the chore list came first. We came last.
We weren’t spending quality one on one time with each other. Yes, we were together buying Christmas gifts, moving around the living room, buying a new tree and putting it up, crossing stuff off of the list, etc…..but that’s busy together. Its not what our relationship needed.
What it needed was for us to take it easy. Relax. Enjoy each other’s company. Talk. Not do anything.
We got caught up in the hurriedness of the holiday and forgot about one another. We were too busy worrying about the stuff on our list and getting everything done.
I’m still mad because he’s mad. Even though we haven’t talked about it, I understand why we are where we are at now. I also know what we need to do to get back on track.
I dont feel like doing that work to get back on track right now. I’m going to stew in my anger for awhile yet and think about what needs of mine weren’t getting met and why. I know I was getting pissy because of working so many hours and trying to get the list done among other things. I was getting pissy because I wasn’t able to write like I wanted to. Yes, I shouldn’t have taken my frustration out on him. Yes, I should have told him what was going on inside my head. I know what my part in this was.
I only have to work three 8 hours days this week and then I have four days off. Yeah!
I’m sure well talk about things this weekend. Maybe we’ll even relax. Relax and get back on track.