Should I Shred My Journals?

Every so often I toss around the idea of shredding my journals (basically when I see them staring at me in the basement).  I been thinking of doing this off and on for the last ten years.

We are thinking of moving and I really don’t want to move them again.  This would be the fourth time I would have to move them, but for some reason I can’t get my head around shredding them.

I have the shredder plugged and one of the four 2 gallon bins I have my journals in next to it, but I can’t do it.  They are just written in plain notebooks or on plain loose leaf paper.  Nothing fancy.

Should I read them first or do I just shred them?

I don’t know what to do.

My heart is racing and I’m shaking.

What the hell am I so afraid of?

I’ve been keeping a journal for the last thirty years or so.  The entries I want to shred are from early on when I started writing in a journal.  I haven’t looked at them….ever.  Well, maybe once when I thought I should read my journals and keep the pages with events/entries I wanted to remember and shred the rest, but I didn’t even get thru one journal and gave up.

I don’t know why I hang onto them (for dear life) because I doubt if I will read them again.  I don’t want anyone to read them now or after I die.

So why?

I don’t know, but what I do know is I am going to take a deep breath and start shredding.  I may read the entries or I might not.  I’ll decide as I go.

All I know is I have to start now or I won’t do it. Plus, I don’t want to drag them downstairs again.  Those darn bins are heavy!

Here I go….wish me luck.