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Do I Act Helpless?

My sister in law told me to stop acting helpless when we were in Vegas awhile ago.

It took me by surprise. She has never spoken to me like that before.

She’s always been good to me.

Until our trip

Here’s what happened.

We were on the people mover on front of the Venetian hotel. We were almost at the end when I noticed there was a guy trying to push a motorized scooter off the people mover that was stuck on the metal strip. All I could think of is that I was going to crash into the scooter so I turned and started walking in the other direction.

Five seconds later my husband grabbed my arm and told me to turn around. The scooter was unstuck.

When I stepped off of the people mover I stood next to my sister in law.

That’s when she said “You could have jumped over the wall. Quit acting so helpless.

I walked away.

Is panicking acting helpless?

Is this the way she sees me? Is this the way people see me?

Do I act helpless in other situations?

What the fuck was going on?

She was half tanked when she said it.

She never used to drink alot until she started hanging around with her sister in law. They drank every weekend at the trailer this summer. They want me to drink with them, but my drinking days are long gone.

The first night we were in Vegas they bought a 1.75 bottle of Malibu from Wal-Mart. An hour later they were drunk when they met us at the restuarant for dinner. I sat at the other end of the table. I didn’t want anything to do with it.

I don’t like drunk people. I don’t like drunk people who are loud and saying inappropriate stuff.

They had more alcohol with dinner.

The trip went downhill from there.

Let’s get back to me being helpless.

Yes, I could have jumped over the wall. It was only two and a half feet high, but I didn’t think about it.

All I could think about was not crashing into the scooter which was not suppose to be on the people mover to begin with in.

I totally admit that I panicked.

But she didn’t have to say that. She could have been nice about it.

She could have told me to jump over the wall.

It wasn’t a good trip and I don’t think we’ll be going back to Vegas with her anytime soon.

That Work Thing: Everyone Should Have Off on November 5th Every Election Year.

This idea has been floating around my head for the last week or so.

I think it is important people to have off to vote.

To spend time with their families and  explain the voting process and history.

To watch the election coverage and be a part of what is going on.

To have time to vote.

I took off today because I think this day is very important and I like seeing the results come in.  It’s very interesting.

What are your thoughts?

Vote!

Vote with love. 

Listen to your gut.

Your heart.

Your soul.

Vote for the person whose values and beliefs are closest to yours.

Forget about the party line.  About being a republican or democrat. 

It doesn’t matter.

Vote for you and what is best for you.

It doesn’t matter who your best friend, husband or parents are voting for. 

You don’t have to vote who they are voting for.

I don’t like lying but you don’t have to be honest about who you voted for when people ask.  It is really no one’s business but yours.  You don’t have to tell anyone.

Be you and vote for who want.

Only you can decide which candidate is good for you.

Now go vote!!

A Messy Cabinet Cleaned Out And Organized

During these last couple of weeks I cleaned  out one cabinet. 

The cabinet is as tall as I am.  5″5.  It’s huge.

Below is a picture

It was a mess.

I took everything out and wiped down the shelves.  It took awhile.  Maybe 3 or 4 hours.  That’s why I kept putting it off.  I didn’t take as long as I thought it would.

I was able to let go of a couple of items.  I’m going to take them to the consignment store.

Here’s the final result

It’s easy to find things.

It makes me happy every time I look at it. 

101 Books to Let Go Of

I dropped off 15 more books at Inklings last Thursday.

It feels good.  I don’t need them anymore.

These books have nothing to do with me anymore.  They are from the old me.

I only want to keep books that I love.  That can help me grow and become my best self.  Books that make me happy.

The books I’m letting go of aren’t going to help me reach that goal.

I’m good with letting them go.

I’ll go through them this week and let go of some more to drop off.

Wish me luck!

Sad News About My Old Boss

Last week I heard – and it may be a rumor but I doubt it – that my old boss is pimping for drug money and/or running drugs.

This makes me sad.  I don’t doubt that it’s true.  Seeing her spiral out of control in 5 months…..

You would think after losing her job of 20 years would have been rock bottom for her.

She walked away from her house.  Her kids.  Her dogs.  Everything she loved.

I still pray for her everyday and hope she finds her way.

I miss her.  My heart aches for her and her family and friends.

I thank God that I never had to go through this.

I hope the next time I see her isn’t in a coffin.

That Work Thing: My 28th Golden Work Anniversary Is Today

No fan fare from management.

No congratulations.

No nothing.

Not that I expected anything….

But…….

It would have been nice to have my boss or the head of shipping or any member of management acknowledge my existence.

It’s something that should be celebrated.  28 years is a long time.  I’ve been a good employee.  I’ve never been written up.

Usually I bring candy or treats to celebrate.  Instead I took a half day and i am watching the Steeler game by myself at Buffalo Wild Wings.

It’s quiet and it gives me time to think. About life.  Retirement.  My side hustle.

21/2 years til retirement.  I want to retire at 62.

Or maybe before…..

Fun Friday:  Mead Folders For $.14 Each

I was in Meijer the other day and ran across this bargin.

Mead folders for $.14 each.

I love a good bargin!

52 folders for under $8.00.

Wow!!!

The receipt shows the 2nd time I was at the store. I wanted you to see what I spent and saved.

I am quite proud of myself! 

Church was happy to get the folders.  Kids always need folders.

I am always happy to share my bargins with other people.

It makes my heart happy.

Fun Friday: I’m Taking An Excel Class

I started over a month ago and it is kicking my ass.

Don’t get me wrong.  I’m learning a lot.  It’s fun.  I never realized how much could be done with excel.

It’s always been on my bucket list.  A coworker told me she was going to sign up and then I did.  My coworker has been very helpful and it’s been nice to work together.

The class pushes me out of my comfort zone and brings up alot of emotions.  I worked with Excel years ago at work but nothing recently.

I have a lot of fear and self doubt.  Fear I am going to fail.  Fear I’m not smart enough.

I am going to keep moving forward.

I can do it!