Begin

One thing I want to do in 2020 is learn how to draw. Maybe a more accurate term would be to be more creative. To get what is in my head on paper. No matter how good or bad it looks.

Perfection.

This is what has been holding me back all these years. I want what I draw or create to be perfect. I want it look exactly like it does in my head when it gets on paper.

Impossible. Unrealistic. Stupid.

I need to be more patient, encouraging and loving with artistic self. My drawing is going to take time. Time to take shape. Time to develop. Time to get better.

Today, I’m sharing with you my first drawing. My first piece of artwork and I’m already down on myself because I dont want to know what to define it.

To me art is flowers or a building or paint splattered on paper.

Mine is definately not is that.

I’m beating myself up because I dont think what I m doing is art.

Silly isn’t it? I’m blocking my own way before I even start.

I need to be gentle with myself. My creativity isnt like anyone else’s. Its mine. It’s going to be unique. One of a kind. It’s going to have flaws. It wont be perfect.

Just like me. I’m unique. I have flaws. And I’m sure not perfect.

Here is my creative piece for this week.

What?

I know. This shows you how much of a beginner I really am.

This is my starting point.

Every week of this year I will have a word. A positive, uplifting word that will be my focus for the week.

This is the reason why the word for the Week 1 is begin.

I chose the word begin because it’s a new year. If I want to learn how to be more creative I have to begin somewhere. So why not now!

What I want to do is begin to get what is in my head out. To experiment. Try new things. Using whatever strikes my fancy. Today I used Crayola colored pencils, Scribble Stuff Flourscent gel pens, a Advantus ruler and stencils from Yoobi.

I came up with the road theme (I hope you could tell it was a road) from one of the girls at work saying “the word on the street is”. Since I live in the country I took it one step further and called it:

Word From a Country Road

I already have an idea for what next week’s road is going to look like even though I have no clue what word I’m going to choose. I ordered metallic and neon colored pencils from Amazon today! There’s a lot of ideas swimming around my head that I can’t wait to explore.

I dont know if this post even makes sense. I took a chance today and began something I’ve been wanting to do for months.

Start.

Begin.

To begin instead of dreaming about it. It felt good to be creative today. To let the ideas flow and explore them. To be me. Imperfect. Flawed. Not sure how to do it.

I have no idea where this us going to go. If anywhere. Theme wise. Word wise. If it fizzes out fizzes out.

I began.

I took action.

I tried.

I’m proud of myself.

What a great way to start the new year!