I Am Scared Crapless

I just finished the 3rd draft of my pitch to write a guest post for Carol Tice’s Making A Living Writing website. Every so often she allows people to pitch their blog ideas for her website so I thought I would give it a try.

I’m scared shitless.

It’s been a long time since I pitched anything and I am insecure. I’m trying not to let fear hold me back. I’m trying to keep the voices in my head at bay. You know the voices. The voices that question who you are and make you feel like crap. They ask…. Who do you think you are? You know your idea sucks so why are you trying? You call yourself a writer. Yeah right.

The thing is that I thought I would have more time to work my pitch. Last week I was going through my last box of stuff from the move and I found part of my notes for my pitch. I didn’t get to pitch last time because I didn’t have the time to write the pitch to the best of my ability. I put the notes on my desk figuring the new session was coming and I would on it it over the weekend. Well I did work on it over the weekend because the notification for open session came in my inbox last Friday so I have a week to make it amazing.

Since my pitch was just a bunch of notes, I have been writing and rewriting it for the last couple of days. I will edit it one more time tonight and email it tomorrow morning.

And then I will let it go.

I am ready. There’s a couple of things I am working on that I would like to pitch. I’m just afraid to put myself out there, but if I want to be a paid author I have to put myself out there and let people see my writing.

It’s that simple.

I will breathe through my fear today instead of letting it stop me from doing what I love.

I can do this!