My house is a disaster. I have to bring the unused Christmas wrap, boxes and name tags downstairs. There’s a stack of magazines (writing and other) I started to go thru, but got sidetracked and never finished. I have a stack of mail that came last week that I need to go through. I have four half written blog posts sitting on the kitchen table that I need to finish. I have a sink full of dishes that need to be washed. And this is just the start of my to do list.
I had yesterday off. Yeah! I had big plans on starting to work on my to do list. I went shopping with my mom in the a.m., ran some errands and returned home about 1:30. I was exhausted so I thought I would take a short nap. I’ll sleep an hour and then I’ll work on my to do list. I covered myself up with a blanket in the recliner and took a nap. I woke up two hours later. I looked around the living room and saw my to do list looking back at me. Then I thought Screw it! I’m taking today off. I fired up my tablet and started to play Soda Crush.
Then came the annoying conversation in my head. Head: You know if you sit on your ass all day you’re not going to get any writing done and then you’re going be mad that you pissed the day away. Body: I deserve a day off to rest. I’m tired. I’ve been working ten hours a day for the last how many weeks. I need to recharge. Head: You know you are going to sit at work tomorrow and wish you wrote today. Body: I need a day off. I can’t run continuously. I’m going to get run down and then get sick. Head: Baby.
I don’t know why I feel guilty if I want a day to do nothing. Obviously I needed it because two hours after my first nap I was taking another one (with only the christmas tree lights on. I love the way my tree turned out). It’s not like I’m calling in sick to work (which I would love to do today, but can’t because I would lose my holiday pay). I’m taking a day off to take care of myself. I never looked at it this way before. I think I need to change my self talk.
I just found out my niece didn’t pass her driving test. My head wasn’t in this post while I was writing it because I was thinking about her and now it really isn’t in the post. Sorry about that. I’m sure I will tie this unfinished post in with another post I will write in the future.
This is not how I planned on finishing this post, but like the title reads, it can wait til tomorrow. Or the next day. Or the next month……