Why I Keep A Journal

I have been keeping a journal as long as I can remember.  I have always been somewhat of a loner so putting my thoughts on paper was always easier for me than talking face to face with someone.  When I was younger I didn’t have a lot of confidence nor did I have the courage to tell people what I truly going on inside so I took a pen to paper instead.

Now I keep a journal  for different reasons.  Even though I still am kind of a loner I keep a journal to work through my past issues and not let those issues cloud today.   I don’t write in it everyday like I probably should, but I do write in it periodically.

Writing in my journal helps me deal with what is bothering me.  I can keep things that are bothering me swimming in my head because I don’t want to deal with them or I can put my thoughts on paper and deal with them.

There is something bothering me today that I need to write in my journal about but I am afraid.  I am afraid of letting it come to the surface and dealing with it because I’m not sure what other feelings are under what I am feeling and I’m not sure how to deal with it.  I know I should (I’m shoulding on myself a lot today aren’t I?).  Once I start I’m sure it won’t be so bad.

What is bothering me is an issue I learned about from my parents.  It’s nothing terrible.  It’s just something I learned about an issue that was far away from us when I was growing up.  But now that issue is close to me and I know what I learned is clouding my judgement and I really need to sort through my feelings.  I’m afraid to because I know my life is going to move forward and even though this is what I want I am still afraid.

Ok.  Sigh…..I’m going to go write in my journal now.

Have a great day!

 

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