I have been keeping a journal as long as I can remember. I have always been somewhat of a loner so putting my thoughts on paper was always easier for me than talking face to face with someone. When I was younger I didn’t have a lot of confidence nor did I have the courage to tell people what I truly going on inside so I took a pen to paper instead.
Now I keep a journal for different reasons. Even though I still am kind of a loner I keep a journal to work through my past issues and not let those issues cloud today. I don’t write in it everyday like I probably should, but I do write in it periodically.
Writing in my journal helps me deal with what is bothering me. I can keep things that are bothering me swimming in my head because I don’t want to deal with them or I can put my thoughts on paper and deal with them.
There is something bothering me today that I need to write in my journal about but I am afraid. I am afraid of letting it come to the surface and dealing with it because I’m not sure what other feelings are under what I am feeling and I’m not sure how to deal with it. I know I should (I’m shoulding on myself a lot today aren’t I?). Once I start I’m sure it won’t be so bad.
What is bothering me is an issue I learned about from my parents. It’s nothing terrible. It’s just something I learned about an issue that was far away from us when I was growing up. But now that issue is close to me and I know what I learned is clouding my judgement and I really need to sort through my feelings. I’m afraid to because I know my life is going to move forward and even though this is what I want I am still afraid.
Ok. Sigh…..I’m going to go write in my journal now.
Have a great day!