I stopped at the Taco Bell drive thru after work tonight at 10:45 p.m. I was hungry for a soft steak taco so I thought I would stop and get one.
I ordered and the gentleman told me to drive up to the window without giving me a total. I thought it was kinda weird, but it’s late and maybe he forgot. I drove up to the window and he gave me my food.
“Is it free tonight?” I asked.
He looked me in the eye and said “It’s on me tonight.”
I thanked him and drove away thinking “Wow! It must be my lucky day. A free taco. How cool is that?”
Then I started questioning it. Why did he give it to me free? Did the car before pay for my taco? If so, I definitely need to pay it forward the next time I go through the drive thru. Or maybe he was just being a nice guy and wanted to do something nice for someone.
But why me? What did I do in the grand scheme of things to deserve a free taco?
As I drove further I started thinking that maybe I shouldn’t eat it. Maybe someone made the wrong taco and it was sitting there for awhile. Would I get sick? Maybe he’s some weirdo that gets off on doing weird things to people’s food. Maybe I should throw it away when I get home.
Then my thoughts went back to why me? I started to get angry with myself. Why not me? I’m a good person. I deserve good things. Don’t I?
Why do question good things that happen to me? Why do I doubt I deserve them? Isn’t there someone else more deserving? Why can’t I just accept them graciously?
Is this what I do with all good that comes into my life? Push it away. If so, why?
I think this is one thing I need to ponder in my life. I think I do push good things away and I’m not sure why. I think this is something I always do and I don’t even realize it. I don’t know why.
Maybe it’s because I don’t want to draw attention to myself.
Why did he give me the free taco?
Maybe it’s the universes way of telling me I’m doing the right thing by letting go of the things I’m putting in the garage sale.
All this over one free taco.
I do have issues. 🙂