Before And After Menopause

“No soap?”  My husband asked at 530 a.m. after looking in the linen closet.

Before menopause I would say.  “I’ll get it.”  and go downstairs and get it.  He had to go to work.  I didn’t.  I could go back to bed.  I didnt mind.  I felt I was a good wife if I helped him.

After menopause I tell him it’s in the basement and I stay in bed.  Call me rude but he is fully capable of going in the basement and getting the soap himself. 

If I am out of shampoo I don’t call on him to get it for me.  If my shampoo is getting low the next time I am in the basement I bring some upstairs and put it in the closest.  I try to buy in bulk so all of our extra items are kept in the basement.

I don’t mind helping if he is in a rush or doesn’t have time, but if he can do it himself I encourage that behavior.

I was awake, but I didn’t want to get up.  I was warm and comfy and snuggling with the pup. 

Menopause has changed me.  I put myself first.  I am more in tune with what I want and need and I vocalize it. 

And I’m not afraid to stay in bed.

Intuition Or What?

When I pulled in the driveway on Friday night a song came on the radio.

Amarillo By Morning by George Strait.

This song was played at my husband’s ex bosses funeral.

And then I heard these words.

Have Steve call Marilyn.

Steve is my husband.  Marilyn is his wife

I waited a couple of minutes and I told my husband what I experienced.

He told me I was hearing things.

I told him he should call her.

He said he would but didn’t until tonight.

He texted her a couple of hours ago to wish her a happy birthday.

She responded with the news her son has cancer. 

Wow.

I’ve never experienced anything like this. 

Have you?

Maybe one thing doesn’t have anything to do with the other.

Maybe its just a coincidence, but i heard the words loud and clear.

I don’t know.

Do you listen to your intuition?

Do you think this is what this is?

What are your thoughts?

An Hour To Myself

I’m going to work an hour late today.

I am on the backside of The Shoppes of Woodlake relaxing.  Enjoying the water and the birds chirping.

It’s beautiful here. 

I needed this. 

I’m focusing on my breath.  Releasing things out of my shoulders.  Just being.

This week is a busy week for me.  Fun things. Getting my toes painted.  Acupuncture.  Spending Thursday morning with my mom going to garage sales.

So I’m relaxing before work today.

This is one of my favorite spots.  I love the water.  It’s quiet.  I can think. Plan. 

Just be.

A half hour before I have to go back to reality and to work.

Hopefully I can keep the calm I’m feeling right now with me all day.

I hope you have a little calm in your day.

That Work Thing: One Thing I Am Grateful For

I am grateful that the company I work for gives us Breavement Pay.

My Aunt Grace died unexpectedly last week and her funeral was this afternoon. Grace was my dad’s last sibling to pass away.  My mom was very close to her and took her passing very hard.

It was really nice to have the day off with pay so I could be there for my mom and my cousins.  Lots of tears, hugs and laughter were shared.

Lots of memories. 

My Aunt Grace was a good lady.

After the funeral my mom, sister, brother, niece and two of my cousins went out for a late lunch.  It was nice.  Relaxing.  We shared stories and laughed some more.

Now I am relaxing at home.  My pup is sleeping at my feet while I watch TV.

I am grateful to be paid for today. 

Life is good.