Author: chrissy

Not So Fun Friday

We’ve had alot of rain lately.

A lot.

This afternoon it poured out. 

The skies opened up and it poured.

These pictures I took about 45 minutes ago.

The rain has slowed and the water has receded a little.

I had to move stuff in the basement because there is water coming in.

More rain is coming on Sunday and Monday.

Pray for our farmers.  Their fields are swimming pools.  Some farmers didn’t even get to plant their fields because they were so wet and now they are wet again.

The sun is trying to come out.

I don’t mind a little rain but this sucks.

How Can My Pup Love Me So Much?

Sometimes I wonder how Scooby can love me so much?

Sometimes I push him away because I don’t feel I deserve his love.

From the minute he wakes up til the minute he goes to sleep he love me.

I step on his tail.  He yelps and when I apologize he jumps all over me and gives me kisses like it’s his fault.

I come in the house from being outside for five minutes and he jumping all over me and giving me kisses like I was gone for 10 hours.

I have never experienced love like this before.

He loves me 24/7.

Without hesitation.  No matter what I do.

He loves me more than I love myself.

When we are walking and looks up at me and he’s smiling it melts my heart.

I’m laying in bed as I write this and he’s snuggled next to me.  If I get up he will lay at the edge of the bed and wait for me to come back and then he will curl up next to me again.

I am so damn lucky to have this pup and his love.

Sometimes I don’t feel like I deserve it but obviously he does

I am always learning about love from this dog I really didn’t want and was only going to tolerate because my husband wanted a dog.

I fell in love with him the day we brought him home and love him more every day.

I am so lucky to be loved like I am.

I love him more than I ever thought possible.

His love heals me and I am forever grateful.

New Babies

A week ago Sunday I planted sunflower seeds in two planters.

Here are pictures of the new babies.

I’ve never planted from seed before so I’m super excited they came up.

I also planted some wild flower and daisy seeds in a different planter.

No babies.

Yet.

I was told to wait another week or two.

I hope I have babies soon!

I’ll keep you updated.

Notes For Future Blog Posts

I brought some if my blog stuff to the laundromat with me this morning.

I am washing the king comforter that we bought so my husband, Scoob and I all have covers throughout the night.

Anyway….

I write notes for my blog almost every day at work.  I bring them home and they get lost on my desk.  I’m digging thru papers looking for one piece of paper I know I wrote notes on.

So this morning I brought the pieces of paper and I’m putting them in a notebook.  A page for each idea.

I’m almost done.

I’m hoping I will be able to find things easier and keep my thoughts together.

It allows me to add notes when I want to posts in the notebook and to write new posts.

Laundry is done and it’s time to go home.

It was nice to spend and hour and 1/2 on my blog.

Fun Friday:  Brain Dump

I know it’s late.  It’s after midnight so it’s really not Friday.

But it’s still Friday to me so here it goes.

I did a brain dump today at work. 

I have 3 blogs.  This one, a writing one and one for my business.

For the last couple weeks I have had all of these ideas for posts swimming around in my head so I decided to get them all on paper today.

I made a list for each blog.

Each time I had an idea I stopped working and wrote ideas down.  Not something I do regularly but I did it today.

I feel better that they are out of my head.

It gives me a sense of direction.  It gives me a starting point for the rest of the year.

It was an outlet for me today.

I really liked doing it.  It brought me joy.

I’m going to stop now.  I hope this makes sense.  I’ve been trying to play with my dog while I’m writing this.

I’ve been home from work for about 45 minutes.  He  wants to play and lick me to death and I  want to write this post so I had to compromise.

Tomorrow I will start organizing my lists and see where it goes from there.

It’s bedtime now so good night.

That Work Thing: I Can Leave

I can leave anytime I want.

This second.  In the next hour. 

Tomorrow. 

Next week.

Whenever I damn well chose to.

I used to think I couldn’t.  I had to retire from here.  That I had too much vacation too lose.  That I couldn’t start over at 59 years old.

But you know what?

I can leave. 

I’ll have to figure out vacation.

I can start over at 59.

I realized this today.

How freeing this is!

I used to think I didn’t want to leave the people I’ve worked with for forever.  That I would cry for days.

But you know what?

I don’t care.

Fuck that.

I’ve been loyal to them for to long.

It’s time for me.

It’s time for me to let my light shine.  To show who I really am.  How smart I am and that I am capable of so much more than I’ve led on.

I want to start living for me.

Is this selfish?

You know what? 

I don’t care.

It’s about time I become selfish and care about about myself.

What I want.  What I need.

If I don’t no one else is going to.

Freedom.

I’ve been wanting to get that tattooed on my arm but didn’t know why.

Now I do.

I can leave and give myself freedom.

I can leave.

What a beautiful thought.

Listening To It Rain

It’s 10:55 a.m. and I’m still in bed at our trailer.

I’m listening to the pitter-patter of raindrops on the trailer roof.

My husband is gone with his brother.

I was suppose to be at a craft fair with the girls but I’m not feeling good so I didn’t go.

I’m enjoying the much needed quiet time with my dog.

I’m listening to the rain and breathing. 

In and out.  In and out.  Letting go of whatever I need to.

I haven’t done this in so long and it feels so darn good.

I suppose I will have to get up at sometime. 

Just not now.

The pup and I are going to chill for a little while longer… 

Fun Friday: Having A Garage Sale

It’s a beautiful day today.

A good day to let go of some stuff.

I’m at my mom’s hanging out with my mom and brothers and my aunt talking about old times while we handle the garage sale.

It’s fun.

Anything that we haven’t used in a year I put in the sale so hopefully I’ll make some cash and have some empty space in my house.

Empty space that I don’t plan on filling.

That’s a good thing.