Another 150 Items

I still have too much stuff so I’m letting go of another 150 items.

At my haircut appointment a week ago, I told my hairstylist, Tracy, that I was letting go of another 150 items. We exchange purging stories everytime she cuts my hair. “I’m up for the challenge. I’ll do it with you. 150 items in a month?”

I thought about it for a moment. “75 in a month?”

She nodded.

“I’ll text you in a week to let you know how I’m doing.”

Well it’s been a week and I have let go of 11 items. Not the number I wanted but I have been going through old documents and shreading all that paperwork. It doesn’t count toward my items and it is time consuming but it’s totally worth it.

Slowly but surely I will get there. A lot has opened up for me by since I let go of the 1st 150.

I cant wait to see what opens up next!

I Am Scared Crapless

I just finished the 3rd draft of my pitch to write a guest post for Carol Tice’s Making A Living Writing website. Every so often she allows people to pitch their blog ideas for her website so I thought I would give it a try.

I’m scared shitless.

It’s been a long time since I pitched anything and I am insecure. I’m trying not to let fear hold me back. I’m trying to keep the voices in my head at bay. You know the voices. The voices that question who you are and make you feel like crap. They ask…. Who do you think you are? You know your idea sucks so why are you trying? You call yourself a writer. Yeah right.

The thing is that I thought I would have more time to work my pitch. Last week I was going through my last box of stuff from the move and I found part of my notes for my pitch. I didn’t get to pitch last time because I didn’t have the time to write the pitch to the best of my ability. I put the notes on my desk figuring the new session was coming and I would on it it over the weekend. Well I did work on it over the weekend because the notification for open session came in my inbox last Friday so I have a week to make it amazing.

Since my pitch was just a bunch of notes, I have been writing and rewriting it for the last couple of days. I will edit it one more time tonight and email it tomorrow morning.

And then I will let it go.

I am ready. There’s a couple of things I am working on that I would like to pitch. I’m just afraid to put myself out there, but if I want to be a paid author I have to put myself out there and let people see my writing.

It’s that simple.

I will breathe through my fear today instead of letting it stop me from doing what I love.

I can do this!

Yeah It’s March 1st…Not!

Big sigh. I’ve been waiting for this day all winter and its here and I’m disappointed.

I think the ground hog lied.

I was hoping March 1st would look like this.

Instead it looks like this.

I guess I have a little bit of spring fever today. Well…maybe for the last week or two.

I am so ready to work in the yard. To finish the front porch and to figure out the landscaping. I want to see my grass and water colorful plants. I want to wear shorts and slip flops

I hear my trailer calling and I can’t go.

But at least the sun is shining today.

I’ll take it.

I know summer will come. I just have to be patient.

Not one of my strong points but I’ll try.

Happy March 1st everyone!

30 Degrees And Sun Please

Last night 6 inches of snow fell.

This is not how I expected the end of February to be.

Last night my 20 minute drive took me 40 minutes. The snow was blinding because it was blowing directly into windshield. I was driving without my brights on. I was driving 25 in a 55.

It was terrible.

It’s still snowing this morning. It looks like it will be snowing off and til next week Monday

I would love to 30 degrees and sun.

Maybe April…..

I Did It!

I reached my goal of letting go of 150 items!!!

Yeah for me!

I didn’t know what to expect when I started this journey. I didn’t know how I would feel or what to do or how to do it. I didn’t know the direction I wanted to go in. All I knew is that I wanted to get rid of stuff.

So I just started.

I’m glad I did becaus the benefits have been amazing. I feel lighter. I’m more organized. It’s easier to let go of stuff. Intuitively I know if I need something or if I can let it go. It’s nice to open up cabinets or closets and see neat and organized shelves. It’s easier to find stuff. My mind is clearer. My creativity flows easier. I’m happier.

I feel like I’m beginning to get to know the real me. The me that was hidden underneath all of that stuff. The thing I didn’t even realize I had all of that stuff. I was interested in making cards so I bought things. I really didn’t have a lot of time to experiment with this so I put it in the corner until I had time. The sad thing is the things i bought sat in a corner because I never found the time. I did make some cards but I found that it really doesnt interest me anymore so I ended up selling what I bought.

I found myself giving up some of my someday stuff. I would rather concentrate on other things. I feel letting go of that stuff has opened up room for what I really want to do or opportunities to come in. I dont have to feel bad anymore because I never used the stuff. Hopefully someone else is using it and enjoying it.

I’ve learned that sometimes taking the first step is the most important step. So what if you dont know what to do or how to do it. You can learn along the way.

Today my goal is to let go of another 150 items. My house is about 30% gone through. This goal shouldn’t be too hard to achieve.

Here’s to the next 150 items!

Goodbye File Box

I have to admit I couldn’t wait the purge this small filing box.

For the last seven years I have been keeping a notebook to document what happened throughout the year with my stepchildren and their mother. I also kept a folder to put miscellaneous insurance and other paperwork in. We did this just in case she decided to take us back to court because she is such a wonderful person.

Now that child support is over, I no longer need to keep all of this. My husband agreed that it was time to dump it.

Yeah. Another area I can purge.

Since its been sleeting on and off today and the weather is crappy, I have started to tear out the pages of the notebooks that were written on and emptied the folders and shredded the paperwork.

I will put the notebooks and files into the donate box and give the shredding to my mom’s cousin, who will use it for bedding for her chickens.

I feel really good about this. I’m letting the crap go, moving forward and putting those rotten years of dealing with the mother of my step children to rest.

I feel I have been holding onto the anger and other emotions from events that have happened over the years. As I was shredding, I felt the anger and emotions leave my body and myself open up.

Onward and upward is how I’m feeling right now. Good times.

8 More Days

I am SO sick of this weather we have had these last couple of weeks.

Today it was snowing at my house. I drove into town early to be able to write for an hour at the library but that didn’t happen. On my way in the snow changed to rain then sleet and back to rain.

I am so done with this weather.

I’m happy there are only 8 more days til March. Every day the sun is a little higher in the sky. The days are longer. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I decided to go to work instead of write so if the rain turns to freezing rain I wont have to drive in it. I can write when I get home.

It will get better. I hope…..